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Cora Lee Oxley

Myth as Social Technology

 

I used to think that ants were blind

 

They seemed to be probing the air all around, ready to bump into the world in any direction. The poor beings were foiled again and again by the pace of the ever-changing world. They could never catch up, their frantic waggling a sign of constant confusion. They had memorized their paths from home and to food, the familiar steps between one dune and another. But they had no paths to anyplace new, nor any way to find each other in vast black deserts. No footprints to be seen, all they had were their little memories in their little heads reminding them what mere inches of the driveway felt like yesterday. 

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Narrative is central to our existence as human beings because it is the product of having a conscious relationship with our own existence. If narrative is consciousness at work, then the stories we tell are also the stories we become. We embody our stories, create from them, and shape ourselves and the world around us by how we interact. Those creations and interactions then go on to shape us in return and the cycle continues. If there is a mode of intervening in the process of storytelling, it is the paradigms they emerge from and reinforce in their emergence. How we think, relate to, believe in, and frame our own existence is what becomes our existence. Then the importance of our paradigms becomes obvious - they have the ability to affect every aspect of us including the wellbeing of our psyches, bodies, relationships, and environments. When we create without regard for those effects, or without the ability to wrap our minds around those consequences as a collective, the seeds of our discontent are sown in every fabric of our co-creations. 

Ideally, the process of creating and sharing story would be a careful one that includes questions of beneficence. Yet many of our current modes of disseminating myth and story at-scale rewards the opposite approach. Social media platforms are especially problematic in this way, with algorithms being highly biased toward promoting content that is: inflammatory and/or false (because false information is often fabricated for inflammatory purposes), morally charged, offensive, or incites a strong reaction. The higher likelihood of virality for these types of content incentivizes users to churn out ‘hot takes’ in rapid response to capitalize on the momentary collective outbursts. The speed at which users are obligated to contribute does not lend itself to care and nuance - in fact, social media platforms in general are not structured to support the depth and complexity necessary to an effective dialogue. Content is often limited by time constraints, character counts, number of photos, etc. Long-form content that encourages long-term entanglement doesn’t induce the same dopamine response as short-form content that produces short-term gratification, but the inherent aim of the platforms then cannot be to connect or to inform. The “function of a system is what it does” and social media companies function to make as much money as possible off their users’ time, emotional energy, and desire to belong. They profit from users engaging, entertaining, addicting, and overwhelming each other within an endless stream of consciousness, as well as both preying on and exacerbating our anxieties and insecurities. In terms of attempting to heal social rifts and personal struggles through learning, discussing, and seeking community, the means that are available for us to heal at this scale are not assistive because they ultimately serve capitalistic aims. Currently, companies intend to profit from our efforts at healing. They intend to extract the energy that we attempt to pour into ourselves and into each other. 

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I would move single grains of rock, or a nearby leaf around to obstruct them. To see how they might make sense of catastrophe. 

 

They remained confused, crawling all over everything 

searching searching searching 

they've dropped something in the sand 

it's there somewhere if only the map 

would stop changing if only the ground 

could stay the same 

we might carry it home together, whatever we've lost, 

and it wouldn't matter that we've been blind

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We appear to be a collective that has forgotten how to create a reality that sustains us. With aspects of our lives beholden to the attention economy which benefits from foiling attempts at consensus, agreement, or social cohesion, we seem trapped: trying to make meaning together in spaces that prey on our deepest fears. We are also not in control of the shape of these digital spaces that we occupy together, with a subsequent lack of ability to hold each other accountable to standards of cooperation. In both appearance and effect there is a growing rift, though the appearance is exaggerated. Generally, research into this divide shows people do desire to get along, to be kind, to be informed, as well as to be heard, seen, and appreciated during shared learning processes. But the kind of online discourse we’re constantly exposed to tells a different story, one where shared values don’t exist anymore because the discourse doesn’t adhere to or exist within systems that assume those values. This leads to a breakdown in trust, a dissolution of truth, and a loss of shared purpose. What are we supposed to do? Especially when we function at a physical and emotional distance from the relative strangers whose messages we practice deciphering and enacting. Where can we turn?

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I remember them stopping to greet each other, embracing and identifying each other by touch. What it would be like, to feel the details of such a tiny face in my palms. To let its antennae gently rustle my hairs. Would it know me as one of its own or one of its paths? I know it would turn away too soon, its cryptic gestures leaving me unmoored and not knowing if my face alone is enough of a name. 

 

Part Two

When I feel lonely sometimes I drive around at night, retracing my own trails of places I used to live, work, and cry. What am I looking for? Where did the trail leave off? 

Am I being a good ant? 

 

I read about how they follow each other without rushing, they self-organize when going in or out of a narrow way, they would walk in only two lines in two directions on the sidewalks. I try to look at myself from above when I’m in-line at the grocery store, leaving a crowded theater, stuck in traffic, and looking for someplace familiar. 

Are we being good ants?

How can I know the truth when I see it?

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There is a tree in the front yard of the home where I currently live. Our neighbor planted it years ago as a favor he sometimes regrets now that the tree is 12 years old, taller than the house, has a split trunk, and sheds branches all over the yard he also mows for us, as a favor. He told me it’s a globe willow, matching the one in his front yard that is more meticulously trimmed. Neither of them ever struck me as very globe shaped… 

Today, after watching my favorite show, then reading articles about the dangers of AI chatbots, I was caught in a screen-induced dopamine overload. I let my laptop die, went outside and sat on our front doorsteps. As the chill started to set in, I wanted to go back inside but my mind and body already felt so much better having sat in the evening light for only a few minutes. I laid down on the concrete in the yellow willow leaves, cradled my head and discovered I was right under the willow. I gazed at her and promised myself I would stay longer.

As I sat, embracing the waves of chill stone creeping into my back and the soles of my feet, single leaves fell over me. Her branches swayed gently and my attention was elsewhere, yet still noticing. 

Suddenly, the outermost parts of her leaves changed in my vision. They swayed together, the whole canopy spinning for a moment. Their green became a layer of color, varied in density all around the outermost reaches of her branches. There were continents where the leaves were darkest together, and oceans where the blue sky peeked through the most, much like a globe.

I used to think we lived on the inside of the sphere

 

I would look up at the sky and wonder why I couldn’t see the other in-side of the earth. 

 

Somehow there is room for an entire sky between us. Somehow we ended up here, with a sun to warm and blind us. I have this sense of being held, hands cupped underneath me and an invisible shield over my head. This is my home, an endless atrium of light.

How am I clinging to this dust under my feet? Are you seeing me? Is your sky clearer than mine? What keeps me from falling through this blue, which is too near now, and could I please get caught somewhere in the middle if I do? 

 

I’d like to see, for myself.

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I find myself aching for truth in the midst of this mess of illusions, and I see the same in many of my siblings: some of us want so desperately to be right because so much seems senseless otherwise. Why does a tree not match its name? I believe wholeheartedly in the human ability to make meaning out of anything. It’s a precious power of ours, one that we can use to any effect. Truly, we can take each other anywhere through story - but where are we going anyway? 

Ant death circles are a phenomenon where ants, following the pheromone trail of others, accidentally end up trapped in a circle. The pheromone trail grows stronger as more ants join, thinking they are being led to somewhere, and the scent becomes so strong that it drowns out any other paths. They can no longer distinguish where they came from or where else they might go, and they eventually starve while still walking the circle to nowhere. Yet sometimes, the circle becomes a spiral. They begin to meet each other in the center. And other times, wind or rain disrupts the trail enough that they can begin searching again to find their colony. 

I’m imagining if humans were ants. Would it be any different for us? I imagine a handful of people stop walking, realizing they are in a circle, lost but surrounded by all their loved ones. Others begin to stop too, looking around and trying to reorient themselves. They might laugh at themselves and ask, “Can we go back home now?” This is partially a metaphor for groupthink, how we can become stuck believing everyone else knows where we’re going and ignore the haunting familiarity. But equally important is reflecting on our motives for setting out together in the first place - we’re not here to be alone but we’re not just here to follow each other either. We’re here to build something together, to care for and repair our homes, to feed ourselves, and to savor every moment. It’s all useless if we die of exhaustion every day and never return. 

Do we realize we are with each other along the way? And that when we come home, it is also to each other? We look for that truth everywhere else first, everywhere that isn’t right here inside the desire to search in the first place. But that’s the beauty of it - that we can tell whatever stories we like and we can get lost in them for as long as we like, too. Our home, that inviolable place in each of us, truly is inviolable - we can never get far enough away from it, deform it enough, or get so turned around that we’ll never find our way back. 

So we can choose to tell stories and create paths for each other anyway. To keep our shared home pristine, gifting paths to and from places and people we love. Paths that keep the way clear, paths that inscribe our memories in movement, paths that teach us each other's names, paths that remind us who we are.

Tell whatever stories you like, imagine the most impossible things and enjoy the journey. Just promise me you’ll visit home again sometime, too.

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I see an infinite number of circles. We’ve followed each other to the ends and the ends and the ends of the earth, desire lines knotting our homes together. Even unanchored in the sky, I look back for that round dirt driveway. I would walk my own trails of places I used to live, work, and cry wherever I found some truth. I know I’m not aimless. I’m not going anywhere new but I’ve never seen the moon from this alleyway before. I’m not searching for anything lost. I only want my face to be cupped in your palms, I want to live on the inside of this life. I only need to be able to find you and home and you again in the changing desert.

 

Cora Lee Oxley is a graduating senior at Boise State University with a bachelor’s degree in Humanities & Cultural Studies. Her writing most often concerns the creation of transformative futures at the intersections of spirituality, ecosystems thinking, and narrative inquiry. She is interested in creative modes of work that support communal storytelling and emerging cultural paradigms.

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